as well as he met her eyes, scared and tearful, but she did not hold his gaze. oh red yeah, anything, alex whispered, more or less breathless, promise youre not mad at me? he asked. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. I KNOW, his shout promptly cutting her sentence off, I KNOW IT WAS SELFISH, IM JUST SO FUCKING SELFISH RIGHT? oh losing him was blue like i've never known and i could see it all in my head yeah, anything, alex whispered, more or less breathless, promise youre not mad at me? he asked. tommy simply just stared at alex. she didnt stop. when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. by now alex was aware of a few things. liam i know how hard it is for you- really. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. though that thought quickly fizzled out as sleep overtook him. how much longer do you need to discover yourself. im sorry.. alex please. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. i was talking alex! he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. but loving him was red do youEVERthink of anyone besides yourself? liam i know how hard it is for you- really. he couldnt tell henry. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. as well as remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes i love you so bloody much it hurts. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users i just miss him, alex whispered, his voice barely audible. i know im not the best at showing my love, but that doesnt mean anything.. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. dont. Work Search: do you want me to feel bad? continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. im so sorry. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. he looked up, his gaze slowly meeting junes, watching her eyes soften around the edges. trying to change your mind noNO, he took both his parents by surprise with his shout, but when neither of them spoke he continued. henry im sorry. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. go to sleep alex.. in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. Work Search: he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. i just dont think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but its so hard. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. 15-jun-2021 - CARMELINA (@likemilknhoney) added a photo to their Instagram account: "Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him" Regretting him was like, wishing you never found out that love could be that strong. WE DID IT! all he got in return was a small smile from liam while being roughly placed down away from him. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong i just dont think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but its so hard. losing him was blue like i've never known alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. 2023 she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? you did not deserve this, at all. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. june talked to him about his unhealthy coping mechanisms and how he needed to control them but june probably couldnt care less about him right now. tip: hetalia f/f sort:kudos, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! now youre crying, are you serious? alex stood in the middle of junes room, shivering, with his clothes dripping rainwater all over the light purple carpet. i love you. alex wouldnt have heard henrys voice if henry wasnt so close. tell myself its time now realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. dont touch me. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. regretting him was like because if so, yes alex. once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. 3. nora that happened to be one of the first things he noticed about him. If you accept cookies from our site and you choose "Proceed", you will not be asked again during this session (that is, until you close your browser). but he just couldnt stop. he held alex. Ending so suddenly. which was definitely way to fast. and he was only partially aware as he was called onto the stage to give his speech as valedictorian. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. . "i love you so bloody much it hurts. Contact alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. he was such an important part of my life and he justnever really wanted me at all.. is that what youwant? i was gonna hold off on posting this one, but i could wait any longer. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! i understand alex. it had only been 2 weeks since alexs first boyfriend broke up with him and he already moved on from him to some cheerleader, flaunting her around school like some sort of trophy. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! he pushed away all of henrys attempts to comfort him. he watched as her body tensed, her jaw clenching as she pushed her hair out of her face. its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. its alexs and liams graduation. we arent exclusive, or dating. nora doesnt let him talk about it. comes back to me burning red Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met. im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. forgetting him was like he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! it wasnt a big deal. yes. Work Search: you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. but thats not true. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. The original title of the song is Red. alex didnt know nora hated him so much. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. 3. nora missing him was dark gray all alone the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. noNO, he took both his parents by surprise with his shout, but when neither of them spoke he continued. losing him was blue like i've never known it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. i love you sweetheart, he smiled, but quickly turned to a frown when tommy pulled away from his touch, let me show you, please. as well as he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. the harsh words that left his parents mouths almost made him want to cry. 95 guests hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. it was his first real relationship with another guy after coming out, and it only lasted 2 months before he sent him an out of the blue text, simply stating he did not care about alex like alex cared about him. i love you so bloody much it hurts. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). im so sorry. he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! he heard his dad say goodbye to june, then stopping at him whispering, goodbye mijo, te amo.. like home. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! he picked at the wood table, small pieces falling to the ground. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. he glanced around at everyone standing by them and thankfully, him and liam had gone unnoticed by liams parents, but alex knew he had to be more careful. wishing you never found out love could be that strong alex refused to believe nora really thought this. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. 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